Tue 23 Jan 2007 @17:05
When the house of cards crumbles do you feel sorry that it’s gone or relief that you no longer have to maintain the facade?
Do you ever think that at any moment someone will burst in on you at work (or at home, but usually at work) and reveal that you are a fraud and a total incompetent? Then they drag you off in a public display of shame for your inadequacy? How dare you take money knowing you couldn’t do the work?
Nah, me neither. Because that would be just silly. Or insane….
Posted by tvs
January 23rd, 2007 at 19:18
OMG…looking around….how did you know??!!!
January 23rd, 2007 at 19:44
I’m so not admitting that I get this.
January 23rd, 2007 at 20:28
Yeah…no:)
January 24th, 2007 at 10:12
you know they make drugs intended to treat this kind of anxiety; right?
Yeah, then I would worry that the drugs would wear off and THEN they would come drag me away…. ~Tim
January 25th, 2007 at 00:02
hmm…something tells me to plead the 5th here.
January 25th, 2007 at 08:07
looknig over my shoulder…
January 28th, 2007 at 10:29
Absolutely.
Ben Folds has a song called “Best Imitation of Myself” - about this very issue — http://benfolds.bluni.com/display.php?songid=159
When I am feeling a bit like my hours have a little too much strutting and fretting I just recite Jabberwocky, work on a NY Times Xword (I miss our rounds of AvantGo Jeopardy) or read a note from a kid or teacher I helped to reassert my identity/validity/bona fides.
Or I just accept that I am a construction of the perceptions of others and leave it at that.