I don’t remember how old I was, but it was during the years that my brother and I shared a room with bunk beds. One night I dreamed I was falling off a cliff… and rolled out of the top bunk. I wasn’t hurt. I climbed back up and went back to sleep. But that sensation of falling… of being out of control… sticks with me.
Some people think I’m a control freak. Pick a reason: I’m a teacher [my classroom, my rules]. I’m [still!] single. Or… they just know me. Whatever. Without arguing the point I will say that I am very uncomfortable with the sensation of falling or slipping or skidding… ugh!
Ever been in a car that’s sliding on ice? I have — both as a passenger and as a driver. Creeps me out. Cars aren’t supposed to move sideways! The brake is supposed to stop them. The steering wheel is supposed to steer them. I’m not wrong about this!
There have been times when my life was sliding out of control. Let’s just say those were very uncomfortable times and leave it at that for now. And lately, the road ahead has been looking a bit icy. Yikes!
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Last December, I took a turn at the wheel when Ted and I were driving back from southeast Idaho (13 hours) and I was in one of the passes that was snowy/icy. I was trying to pass a semi to get out of its way and then I hit a patch of ice and was literally doin 360 spins across I-90. Ted yelled out “stop touching everything” and then I finally came to a stop at the snow bank. I don’t know if I’ve ever been as terrified, not having any control and wondering if another car was going to come around the corner and not be able to avoid hitting me.
I am a control freak too–But I’m convinced it’s in a good way–because I was not in control of my own life for so long that I’m terrified of giving it up now that I have it.
Um, I mean, I don’t like ice either–makes me feel unsafe.
Great Tim–look at you all bringing out my issues.
–snow
Control is but an illusion my friend!! Sometimes you just have to let it go… and slide…..
(it will be ok)